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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
2:36 pm	i miss you a lot today is going to suck so bad. I hate driving to Hobe Sound and i really hate not having my cell phone right now. oh well there's my rant....not very angry....more like a 6 year old that didn't get that extra scoop of ice cream after dinner but it will have to do because i don't really have anything to be angry about anymore... ::update:: My space time continuum portal machine #5 is about 13% operational...i'm currently in the market for a flux capacitor if anyone has one laying around, ok? seriously i need one...::end update:: oh yeah and sorry for not contacting certain people during this last week but my Dad walked out on our family twice and we have since been patching things up at home and its been tough to deal with....my apologies. that's it, peace Current Mood: happy Current Music: Library Silence (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 12th, 2006
1:15 pm	here we go again.... "a funny thing happens when you meet your hero. Either he/she turns out to be a fucking asshole, or you find out he/she is exactly like you. Either way your fucked." Imaginary Hero's....rent it fuckers hmmmmm this is a weird feeling, i can't exactly pin point what it is but i kind of like it... i realize that in this time of turmoil in my life i should probably take the easy way out and blame everyone that i know, mend all past relationships with friends so they can pretend to give a shit about my feelings, wallow in self pity, do some emo-bread slicer thingy, cry about it, tell everyone to fuck off, and after all that pretend that i don't care... but here is the truth... i made a choice. all things in life begin with a simple decision to do what is in your heart or what is easy and i chose my heart. i'm sorry for anyone that is effected by this decision and i hope that maybe one day father time can heal this wound, but the fact is i stand by my decision. People can think whatever they want about me and i'm ok with that because i don't base my life on what others tell me i should or should not do, otherwise i would never leave my bedroom and probably never get anything accomplished through fear of rejection from those i care about. I value my friendships and i love my friends. (those of you who i know know this by my never ending crusade to try and make them happy, even when they were at their lowest.) My friends are friends with basically all of my inner-circle of friends and i cannot tell anyone how to take this. All i can hope is that they don't judge either side to harshly and just be there like they have been in the past. Most of my life i've been alone in my fight but i still know that some of you still care and i will always love you for accepting me, good or bad, and everything in between. I would do the same for you and if my past is a testament to anything, i already have. peace Current Mood: satisfied (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
1:36 pm	i feel incredible...:-) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Led Zeppelin-Thats the way (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 29th, 2005
12:17 pm	I need Lacuna Corp. Lets all try something different today... Post something positive about someone...anyone...they don't even have to be real just do this so that i can go on believing that the human race is capable of something greater then lies and betrayl...i'll go first. I am a Godfather to a beautiful and happy baby named Jacob Billick. He makes me smile everytime i see his picture and i wish that i lived closer to him so that i could spoil him on a regular basis. Peace Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Led Zeppelin - Thats the way (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
1:14 pm	amazing eyes with content in being blind... wow, have you no soul? i believe this is the part where i tell you that you need jee-whiz, but all i think you need is a clue, not god. its amazing what someone can tell you when you can see past a brick wall, fuck it peace Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Just Ducky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
1:04 pm	Dancing with a light poll by moonlight... staring down upon the hustle and sounds sitting on top of a parking garage A man named Kentucky needed some change instead we gave him a cigarette we stare and amaze the dancing is magnetic the company is superior its a drug to say the least all done up preserved inside a memory strangers ask us where ya from? a million different stories to follow. driving the endless road we find peace in chaos finding a primal need the check was taken care of bang bang bang sounds of tiny workers bang bang bang the sounds ring out in stereo wish but do not hope take but prepare to give love but do not live die with no regret peace Current Mood: hot Current Music: Burn - NIN (Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
1:39 am	it attacks at dawn "I love so many, but miss so few." HHN was amazing. We had lots of fun, got really soaked, and ate fried Oreos. I do wish that a certain someone could have came too, but unfortunetly i could not reach them. But still, i promise i will make it up to her so it should all work out in the end. I will talk more about it after the attack is over and the world steadies itself. I hope everyone is taken care of and well prepared, love to all. Peace Love and Stuff Current Mood: calm Current Music: The MegaDoomerCombatStealthMech (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
12:31 pm	(Chorus) Shadows and Dust by Ricky Everythings reversed, when your song begins to play. Darkened dreams forgotten, its just another day. Wishing for nothing, i've got nothing else to say. But when your forgotten... Its just another day... Peace Current Mood: Patient (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
11:23 am	clean lemony fresh victory is MINE!!! so yeah, yesterday was A LOT of fun....well not the beginning....the beginning was work BUT THEN there was fun. Me and Mike got off work and headed to pick up Jo and head to the mall to buy Mike's HHN ticket. Unfortunately, Mike failed to remind me to bring the Burger King coupon so it was all in vein....until i bought my vanilla col-ada creme coffee oh sweet victory! We left the mall, went to pick up Space Cadet Holly-Cat, went to Liquor store, bought delicious rum, then headed back to Jo's because i needed to straighten up the band room. After i completed my task i drove and picked up the coolest cat ever Miss Molly Nugent. We headed back to Jo's for an evening of Music, laughter, and complete inebriation. We achieved all of this until about 1am when we decided to take off. BUT...before that, Molly and I played just about all our originals and covers for Holly, Jo, and Mike with the occasional Holly/Molly freestyle which has an amazing effect that no drug can reproduce :-) Once we departed from Jo's we headed over to Molly's friend and fellow band mates house to listen to music and get totally fucked up. It worked....i was totally fucked up and i do believe that everyone else in the room was just as satisfied. Molly had to leave early because her Father wanted her home, so her Mom came and picked her up, I said goodbye which made me sad, and then headed back to the couch to swim. I know i passed out for like an hour and a half if not two to discover that it was in fact 4:20 (go figure) and i was in serious need of my bed. So, i woke up Mike, bid Aaron farewell (he was passed out but i think he heard me) and made the long journey to Mike's and then to Sebastian where i immediately passed out of existence. I think thats it....i hope thats it lol Peace Fools! Current Mood: peaceful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
12:58 pm	...a feeling of self gratification... This will make someone smile... Clever got me this far Then tricky got me in Eye on what I'm after I don't need another friend Smile and drop the cliche 'Till you think I'm listening I take just what I came for Then I'm out the door again Peripheral on the package Don't care to settle in Time to feed the monster I don't need another friend Comfort is a mystery Crawling out of my own skin Just give me what I came for Then I'm out the door again Lie to get what I came for Lie to get just what I need Lie to get what I crave Lie and smile to get what's mine Eye on what I'm after I don't need another friend Nod and watch your lips move If you need me to pretend Because clever got me this far Then tricky got me in I'll take just what I came for Then I'm out the door again Lie to get what I came for Lie to get what I need now Lie to get what I'm craving Lie and smile to get what's mine Give this to me Mine, mine, mine Take what's mine Mine, mine, mine Take what's mine Mine, mine, mine Lie to get what I came for Lie to get what I need now Lie to get what I'm craving Lie to smile and get what's mine Give this to me Take what's mine Mine, mine, mine Take what's mine Give this to me Take what's mine, take what's mine, mine... Take what's mine, take what's mine, take what's mine, This is mine, mine, mine Current Mood: grateful (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
7:18 pm	boooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeed What kinda sex do you like? Name DOB Favourite Color Times you want to fuck a day.. as many times as possible Fav. position 69 How you like it fuck foreplay..LETS SCREW!! Where do you like doing it on the couch how good are you? fucking orgasmic This QuickKwiz by sixmilesleft - Taken 462045 Times. </a> New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
11:17 pm	Dream Theater Sunday: Slept for a long time until i awoke around 11pm. Relaxed around the house and watched a movie.....i think, then around 2 i called Molly and eventually made it to her house to begin our day of nonexistence. We headed west and talked about everything that was going on with our lives, just the headaches and the ridiculousness of situations beyond our control. We slummed around for a while and then headed North to find Coffee and Music. We found both in the cocoa area and then proceeded to drink freezers, eat pizza from NY, play music to a vast majority of the beach community, made a profit, met an actor.....yeah We talked for what seemed like only seconds but lasted hours about family, friends, so-called-friends, love, music, movies, etc., i could have just existed there forever. We found a board walk type area and sat Molly's case out and began to play for people walking by. We were playing some cover songs when a family stopped by to listen to us, Mom, two sons and two daughters. After telling how they enjoyed it the youngest son, about 4, told us he could rap. Molly then proceeded to drum a beat on the back of her guitar as this little boy rapped about life, it was so cute. After about 3 more hours of bliss, we decided to pack it up and find more coffee. As we were leaving we saw this older gentlemen playing a familiar song all by himself so Molly decided to stop and listen so i soon followed. We then learned that he was an actor and actually acted in a commercial for a Kennedy law firm, which he says he never got payed for. We asked him to play a song and he shifted through some music and decided on "Daniel" by Elton John which was an AMAZING cover, he has a Cat Steven's like voice. So, after he was done he asked Molly and I to play. We played one of Molly's covers and one original, then he asked us to sing together which went ok, considering we haven't sang the same song together in like 6 months. He then offered me his card and asked if sometime in the not to distant future, if we would be interested in playing in some music festival!(i told you this got weird) We said our goodbyes and were off after we exchanged #'s and stuff. We made $.63 cents too which was pretty funny too. Anyway, Sunday was really great, i can't wait to do it again. Molly is an amazing person and one of the most genuine people i know. Molly is correct, the only bad part was having to come back home. Peace Current Mood: creative Current Music: To Ascend we must die(The Great Sacrifice) by Ricky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
1:35 am	Today was amazing, i will have more time to tell you on tuesday because i need time to put into words and i'm about to die right now. I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVe Karma Peace (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 15th, 2005
9:26 am	Why do we fall? So we can learn....to pick ourselves up again. Never had truer words been spoken... Its funny how we can look back and reflect on almost every instance of our lives with one familiarity and smile. And as such, i present you with a retrospective of the past 2 years: Monica - A Mother to be. Lenny - The Soldier. Jo - My Rock and truth when all else failed. Holly - One of the most creative and free spirits i have ever met. Mike A. - A friend i can stand by no matter what. Jon - A friend you can trust and tell anything to. Liz - One of the kindest people i have ever met. Molly - An old soul like me that deserves better from this world. Andy - Brutal Honesty and a great great friend. Jordan - A great Love. Elyse - Love and Faith Jessy - Japan-a-mation and great music Mike E. - A once great friendship Criff - Halo Vince - Champion Jessy P. - Sweet individual that yearns for the world to know her. Books a million - Great coffee The Mall - Devil's throat Family - Always there for me Orlando - My temporary home. to anyone that i forgot, forgive me, for i know not what i do. love and stuff Ricky (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
12:31 am	For those who know.......FUCK! Current Mood: pissed off (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
8:25 am	"I guess i could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me.....but its hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes i feel like its too much....my heart begins to fill up like a balloon thats about to burst......but then i remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it....and then it flows through me like rain......and i can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.....you have no idea what i'm talking about i'm sure....but don't worry.....you will someday..." i did this from memory so if its choppy i apologize, it just seems to fit here, can anyone guess where this portion of a beautiful monologue comes from? Farewell "I don't understand.....when your heart breaks aren't you suppose to die?" Harper Current Mood: discontent (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 8th, 2005
9:49 am	A Perfect Circle... We are defined by our choices in life. "My Eyes are a two way mirror, you look through them but something stares back at you. Is it truth, Life, Death, Worse, Better? its like a double sided blade of irony. You look into my mirror and see whats beneath, i look through the mist to find what i'm looking for. I'm scared, so scared that i cannot look anymore. The colors are bright and shining, Deep blue, Forest Green, Earthly Brown, Amazing splendor. You tell me its love, like nothing that has never entangled the soul. So beautiful my destruction, so wonderful it hurts. My Eyes are a two way mirror, my life a perfect circle." Ricky Night Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
10:43 pm	a sleep a dream a wake i'm writing again....it makes me feel better i might start teaching Drama on tuesday nights over at Sebastian River Middle School. They haven't had a drama teacher for over 3 years and it would give me great practice for my future career. "sunday is here again open up the world begins shattered paintings lost and rotten shattered faces long forgotten clouds that part and breathe the air swallow whole this mortal care shadows still that burn the ground fall in place without a sound..." Goodnight Current Mood: optimistic (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
10:33 pm	even if i told you.... you would not believe the day i have had today.... the whole world is against me i swear to God.... Current Mood: cold (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
11:38 pm	"Angels in America" Name the movie that this quote belongs to and you win a cookie: 1. "it isn't until we lose everything, that we are free to do anything" 2. "So tell us Lester, why are you doing this? I wanna look good naked!" 3. "Put your motherf@#king mouth on the curb!" 4. "I can't feel my face, i mean....i know its there i just can't feel it." 5. "Try not to suck any dicks on your way to the parking lot!" 6. "I say i'm dead, and i move." 7. "The whole worlds against us dude, i swear to God>" 8. "I just crashed my car into Jesus!!!" 9. "I'd love to stay and chat.....but i'm having an old friend for dinner...bye..." 10. "You talkin to me? I don't see anyone else here so you must be talking to me." ***some of them are kind of obscure but not impossible, enjoy!*** J (5 Comments |Comment on this)