Every Prophet in His House

jayson_chylds @ 2006-02-09T14:36:00

2006-02-09T19:48:36Z

i miss you a lot

today is going to suck so bad. I hate driving to Hobe Sound and i really hate not having my cell phone right now.

oh well there's my rant....not very angry....more like a 6 year old that didn't get that extra scoop of ice cream after dinner but it will have to do because i don't really have anything to be angry about anymore...

::update:: My space time continuum portal machine #5 is about 13% operational...i'm currently in the market for a flux capacitor if anyone has one laying around, ok? seriously i need one...::end update::

oh yeah and sorry for not contacting certain people during this last week but my Dad walked out on our family twice and we have since been patching things up at home and its been tough to deal with....my apologies.

that's it, peace

here we go again....

2006-01-12T18:36:24Z

"a funny thing happens when you meet your hero. Either he/she turns out to be a fucking asshole, or you find out he/she is exactly like you. Either way your fucked." Imaginary Hero's....rent it fuckers

hmmmmm this is a weird feeling, i can't exactly pin point what it is but i kind of like it...

i realize that in this time of turmoil in my life i should probably take the easy way out and blame everyone that i know, mend all past relationships with friends so they can pretend to give a shit about my feelings, wallow in self pity, do some emo-bread slicer thingy, cry about it, tell everyone to fuck off, and after all that pretend that i don't care...

but here is the truth...

i made a choice. all things in life begin with a simple decision to do what is in your heart or what is easy and i chose my heart. i'm sorry for anyone that is effected by this decision and i hope that maybe one day father time can heal this wound, but the fact is i stand by my decision. People can think whatever they want about me and i'm ok with that because i don't base my life on what others tell me i should or should not do, otherwise i would never leave my bedroom and probably never get anything accomplished through fear of rejection from those i care about.

I value my friendships and i love my friends. (those of you who i know know this by my never ending crusade to try and make them happy, even when they were at their lowest.) My friends are friends with basically all of my inner-circle of friends and i cannot tell anyone how to take this. All i can hope is that they don't judge either side to harshly and just be there like they have been in the past.

Most of my life i've been alone in my fight but i still know that some of you still care and i will always love you for accepting me, good or bad, and everything in between. I would do the same for you and if my past is a testament to anything, i already have.

peace

jayson_chylds @ 2006-01-04T13:36:00

2006-01-04T18:37:26Z

i feel incredible...:-)

I need Lacuna Corp.

2005-12-29T17:24:29Z

Lets all try something different today...

Post something positive about someone...anyone...they don't even have to be real just do this so that i can go on believing that the human race is capable of something greater then lies and betrayl...i'll go first.

I am a Godfather to a beautiful and happy baby named Jacob Billick. He makes me smile everytime i see his picture and i wish that i lived closer to him so that i could spoil him on a regular basis.

Peace

amazing eyes with content in being blind...

2005-11-10T18:19:25Z

wow, have you no soul? i believe this is the part where i tell you that you need jee-whiz, but all i think you need is a clue, not god.

its amazing what someone can tell you when you can see past a brick wall,

fuck it

peace

Dancing with a light poll by moonlight...

2005-11-03T18:15:37Z

staring down upon the hustle and sounds
sitting on top of a parking garage
A man named Kentucky needed some change
instead we gave him a cigarette

we stare and amaze
the dancing is magnetic
the company is superior
its a drug to say the least

all done up
preserved inside a memory
strangers ask us where ya from?
a million different stories to follow.

driving the endless road
we find peace in chaos
finding a primal need
the check was taken care of

bang bang bang
sounds of tiny workers
bang bang bang
the sounds ring out in stereo

wish but do not hope
take but prepare to give
love but do not live
die with no regret

peace

it attacks at dawn

2005-10-24T05:49:31Z

"I love so many, but miss so few."

HHN was amazing. We had lots of fun, got really soaked, and ate fried Oreos. I do wish that a certain someone could have came too, but unfortunetly i could not reach them. But still, i promise i will make it up to her so it should all work out in the end.

I will talk more about it after the attack is over and the world steadies itself. I hope everyone is taken care of and well prepared, love to all.

Peace Love and Stuff

(Chorus) Shadows and Dust by Ricky

2005-10-23T16:38:29Z

Everythings reversed,
when your song begins to play.

Darkened dreams forgotten,
its just another day.

Wishing for nothing,
i've got nothing else to say.

But when your forgotten...
Its just another day...

Peace

clean lemony fresh victory is MINE!!!

2005-10-22T15:55:02Z

so yeah, yesterday was A LOT of fun....well not the beginning....the beginning was work BUT THEN there was fun. Me and Mike got off work and headed to pick up Jo and head to the mall to buy Mike's HHN ticket. Unfortunately, Mike failed to remind me to bring the Burger King coupon so it was all in vein....until i bought my vanilla col-ada creme coffee oh sweet victory!

We left the mall, went to pick up Space Cadet Holly-Cat, went to Liquor store, bought delicious rum, then headed back to Jo's because i needed to straighten up the band room. After i completed my task i drove and picked up the coolest cat ever Miss Molly Nugent. We headed back to Jo's for an evening of Music, laughter, and complete inebriation. We achieved all of this until about 1am when we decided to take off. BUT...before that, Molly and I played just about all our originals and covers for Holly, Jo, and Mike with the occasional Holly/Molly freestyle which has an amazing effect that no drug can reproduce :-)

Once we departed from Jo's we headed over to Molly's friend and fellow band mates house to listen to music and get totally fucked up. It worked....i was totally fucked up and i do believe that everyone else in the room was just as satisfied. Molly had to leave early because her Father wanted her home, so her Mom came and picked her up, I said goodbye which made me sad, and then headed back to the couch to swim. I know i passed out for like an hour and a half if not two to discover that it was in fact 4:20 (go figure) and i was in serious need of my bed. So, i woke up Mike, bid Aaron farewell (he was passed out but i think he heard me) and made the long journey to Mike's and then to Sebastian where i immediately passed out of existence.

I think thats it....i hope thats it lol

Peace Fools!

...a feeling of self gratification...

2005-10-20T17:01:21Z

This will make someone smile...

Clever got me this far
Then tricky got me in
Eye on what I'm after
I don't need another friend
Smile and drop the cliche
'Till you think I'm listening
I take just what I came for
Then I'm out the door again

Peripheral on the package
Don't care to settle in
Time to feed the monster
I don't need another friend
Comfort is a mystery
Crawling out of my own skin
Just give me what I came for
Then I'm out the door again

Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get just what I need
Lie to get what I crave
Lie and smile to get what's mine

Eye on what I'm after
I don't need another friend
Nod and watch your lips move
If you need me to pretend
Because clever got me this far
Then tricky got me in
I'll take just what I came for
Then I'm out the door again

Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get what I need now
Lie to get what I'm craving
Lie and smile to get what's mine

Give this to me
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine

Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get what I need now
Lie to get what I'm craving
Lie to smile and get what's mine

Give this to me
Take what's mine
Mine, mine, mine
Take what's mine
Give this to me

Take what's mine, take what's mine, mine...
Take what's mine, take what's mine, take what's mine,
This is mine, mine, mine

boooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeed

2005-10-19T23:18:52Z

Dream Theater

2005-10-19T03:42:38Z

Sunday:

Slept for a long time until i awoke around 11pm. Relaxed around the house and watched a movie.....i think, then around 2 i called Molly and eventually made it to her house to begin our day of nonexistence. We headed west and talked about everything that was going on with our lives, just the headaches and the ridiculousness of situations beyond our control. We slummed around for a while and then headed North to find Coffee and Music.

We found both in the cocoa area and then proceeded to drink freezers, eat pizza from NY, play music to a vast majority of the beach community, made a profit, met an actor.....yeah

We talked for what seemed like only seconds but lasted hours about family, friends, so-called-friends, love, music, movies, etc., i could have just existed there forever. We found a board walk type area and sat Molly's case out and began to play for people walking by. We were playing some cover songs when a family stopped by to listen to us, Mom, two sons and two daughters. After telling how they enjoyed it the youngest son, about 4, told us he could rap. Molly then proceeded to drum a beat on the back of her guitar as this little boy rapped about life, it was so cute.

After about 3 more hours of bliss, we decided to pack it up and find more coffee. As we were leaving we saw this older gentlemen playing a familiar song all by himself so Molly decided to stop and listen so i soon followed. We then learned that he was an actor and actually acted in a commercial for a Kennedy law firm, which he says he never got payed for. We asked him to play a song and he shifted through some music and decided on "Daniel" by Elton John which was an AMAZING cover, he has a Cat Steven's like voice. So, after he was done he asked Molly and I to play. We played one of Molly's covers and one original, then he asked us to sing together which went ok, considering we haven't sang the same song together in like 6 months. He then offered me his card and asked if sometime in the not to distant future, if we would be interested in playing in some music festival!(i told you this got weird) We said our goodbyes and were off after we exchanged #'s and stuff. We made $.63 cents too which was pretty funny too.

Anyway, Sunday was really great, i can't wait to do it again. Molly is an amazing person and one of the most genuine people i know. Molly is correct, the only bad part was having to come back home.

Peace

jayson_chylds @ 2005-10-17T01:35:00

2005-10-17T05:36:43Z

Today was amazing, i will have more time to tell you on tuesday because i need time to put into words and i'm about to die right now.

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVe Karma

Peace

jayson_chylds @ 2005-10-15T09:26:00

2005-10-15T13:49:01Z

Why do we fall? So we can learn....to pick ourselves up again. Never had truer words been spoken...

Its funny how we can look back and reflect on almost every instance of our lives with one familiarity and smile. And as such, i present you with a retrospective of the past 2 years:

Monica - A Mother to be.
Lenny - The Soldier.
Jo - My Rock and truth when all else failed.
Holly - One of the most creative and free spirits i have ever met.
Mike A. - A friend i can stand by no matter what.
Jon - A friend you can trust and tell anything to.
Liz - One of the kindest people i have ever met.
Molly - An old soul like me that deserves better from this world.
Andy - Brutal Honesty and a great great friend.
Jordan - A great Love.
Elyse - Love and Faith
Jessy - Japan-a-mation and great music
Mike E. - A once great friendship
Criff - Halo
Vince - Champion
Jessy P. - Sweet individual that yearns for the world to know her.
Books a million - Great coffee
The Mall - Devil's throat
Family - Always there for me
Orlando - My temporary home.

to anyone that i forgot, forgive me, for i know not what i do.

love and stuff
Ricky

jayson_chylds @ 2005-10-12T00:31:00

2005-10-12T04:32:35Z

For those who know.......FUCK!

jayson_chylds @ 2005-10-11T08:25:00

2005-10-11T12:36:13Z

"I guess i could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me.....but its hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes i feel like its too much....my heart begins to fill up like a balloon thats about to burst......but then i remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it....and then it flows through me like rain......and i can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.....you have no idea what i'm talking about i'm sure....but don't worry.....you will someday..."

i did this from memory so if its choppy i apologize, it just seems to fit here, can anyone guess where this portion of a beautiful monologue comes from?

Farewell

"I don't understand.....when your heart breaks aren't you suppose to die?" Harper

A Perfect Circle...

2005-10-08T14:02:40Z

We are defined by our choices in life.

"My Eyes are a two way mirror,
you look through them but something stares back at you.

Is it truth, Life, Death, Worse, Better?
its like a double sided blade of irony.

You look into my mirror and see whats beneath,
i look through the mist to find what i'm looking for.

I'm scared,
so scared that i cannot look anymore.

The colors are bright and shining,
Deep blue, Forest Green, Earthly Brown, Amazing splendor.

You tell me its love,
like nothing that has never entangled the soul.

So beautiful my destruction,
so wonderful it hurts.

My Eyes are a two way mirror,
my life a perfect circle."

Ricky

Night

a sleep a dream a wake

2005-10-07T03:08:38Z

i'm writing again....it makes me feel better

i might start teaching Drama on tuesday nights over at Sebastian River Middle School. They haven't had a drama teacher for over 3 years and it would give me great practice for my future career.

"sunday is here again
open up the world begins

shattered paintings lost and rotten
shattered faces long forgotten

clouds that part and breathe the air
swallow whole this mortal care

shadows still that burn the ground
fall in place without a sound..."

Goodnight

jayson_chylds @ 2005-10-05T22:33:00

2005-10-06T02:36:11Z

even if i told you....
you would not believe the day i have had today....
the whole world is against me i swear to God....

"Angels in America"

2005-10-04T03:52:33Z

Name the movie that this quote belongs to and you win a cookie:

1. "it isn't until we lose everything, that we are free to do anything"

2. "So tell us Lester, why are you doing this?
I wanna look good naked!"

3. "Put your motherf@#king mouth on the curb!"

4. "I can't feel my face, i mean....i know its there i just can't feel it."

5. "Try not to suck any dicks on your way to the parking lot!"

6. "I say i'm dead, and i move."

7. "The whole worlds against us dude, i swear to God>"

8. "I just crashed my car into Jesus!!!"

9. "I'd love to stay and chat.....but i'm having an old friend for dinner...bye..."

10. "You talkin to me? I don't see anyone else here so you must be talking to me."

***some of them are kind of obscure but not impossible, enjoy!***

J

....

2005-09-29T04:54:06Z

"i don't care"

-it became a phrase i have used a lot today. I was saying it so much, that i was reminding myself of another apathetic person which made me feel horrible.

I can't wait for Halloween. I need to find a costume soon, my hair is long enough now that if i wanted to, i could dress up like Brandon Lee from Crow. i don't know, i really want to do a Dark Wizard or Jedi, i guess i'll just have fun with it.

Halloween Horror Nights this year shall be grand, i'm trying to get the band back together but with this many people going, there is bound to be scheduling conflicts. We would love to have anyone that can go.

well thats it for now, i miss everyone

"Challenge Authority, Question Everything" Maynard

Jayson

jayson_chylds @ 2005-09-21T22:34:00

2005-09-22T02:34:48Z

Ask me a question...

and i'll give you three answers...

jayson_chylds @ 2005-09-16T07:58:00

2005-09-16T12:20:20Z

Happy 5 months love!

lets see, this is probably going to be very short because i need to get to work, but i just want to say that this week including the previous weekend has been very good to me.

Friday- i got totally drunk(meaning i finished off an entire bottle of rum by myself, oh its the pirates life for me) and had lots of fun at Jo's house which led us to the conclusion that we should have a "get together" at Jo's atleast once a month. We were surrounded by good people and we had a blast.

Saturday- Crashed at Jo's beacause like hell i was driving, went to Q-Snack met up with Mike-E and shared in the laughs of most of the stuff that me and Agri couldn't remember the night before:

Jo- Ricky how are you doing?
Ricky- HOW ARE YOU DOIN????

Agri- Somebody hold me (Granted he was about to fall on his face)
Mike-E - Fuck this (turns to walk back inside)

then continuing on sat. me and Agri had to work which was ironic since we both wanted to call out. We had laughs, me more then most and then i went home and died for 8 hours.

Sunday - 8 am took me Grandma to breakfast for my usual sunday morning ritual. I met up with Elyse after church and she was totally tired. She had been at Islands of Adventure the night before and didn't get home till 4am. So we went to subway i got my usual low-carb wrap which costs more then 2 subs put together (ridiculous....the statement not the spell) and then we went back to her house to watch Crash before i was set to go to Orlando. I left around 2:30 and Elyse went to bed, me and the CWB's eventually made it to Orlando around 4:30 saw an amazing match one of the best clinics i have ever seen and then proceeded to Ale house afterwards to mingle with the wrestlers, get some sexy photo's courtesy of Mike-E's camera, and get some good food...BUT.....we didn't take into consideration that the staff at ale house were all on their perverbial periods and the service sucked. Left there at like one after a round trip from Orlando to Vero to Lakewood park to Sebastian, i eventually died again at 4am and slept for 3 1/2 hours before work.

Week of Sept 12-Sept 16 - VERY LAX thats all i can say. Talking with Elyse and trying to spend as much time with her as i can, hanging with friends, last night to be exact, was f-u-n. Jackie stopped by while Jo and I were hanging out and we started shootin the shit and she showed off her new hair-do which looks very good! It makes her look very distinguished and very mature whcih suits her well. So then me, Jo, and Jackie after sitting around and joking about stuff, breakin balls and strolling down memeory lane, decided to run to Quik snak and meet up with Mike-E which was a bonus because Elyse got out of practice at the same time and met up with us. We sat around taking obscure pictures of us joking, me holding a cat(the best cat ever), and all of us making weird faces and stuff. It was grand.

so thats it, i know the above statement was a complete lie about being short but i got on a rant and if you were here right now, my accent would probably be running rampit.

yesterday was my 5 month anniversary with my love Elyse, she still suprises me everyday and i still find new ways in which to fall in love everytime she smiles at me.

fin

sorry so quick but i must lay down and sleep...

2005-09-13T05:05:48Z

I just finished watching Final Fantasy VII : Advent Children in Japanese and it is by far the best visual movie i have ever seen in my entire life.
I can't wait for the english version to know what they say but the pure emotion on each character and the "real life" feel that this amazing computer generated master-piece had was well worth the wait

i am in complete awe...

laugh out loud, its good for you.

2005-09-01T14:36:36Z

At least its all we can do to get through our day to day. This world is vastly decomposing upon itself with each catastrophic events that plagues our middle class lives.

The rich get richer and the poor get poorer, its like Mother Nature is a republican. Thank God, so far, this year has spared our already weathered small hole in the wall but its not like we don't have enough problems already. Gas will soon be over $3 a gallon and soon prices on other retail items will inevitably go up, we're fucked.

Enjoy these days and take it one step at a time. Laugh with your friends and be thankful for air conditioning and hot meals, because you never know when the world will take them away from you-
Jayson

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